Where is the dawn?
I'm outa cigarettes and it's still dark.
So judge me:
if you've ever had an enemy
you'll understand, my dear.
(it isn't safe to go outside!)
Hold up your hand -
curling the two smallest fingers before your eyes.
But run first
(run away!)
run first -
I am a deviant,
a crawling silverfish
a gnawing scavenger
a trembling cretin!
(yeah, is it enough?
isn't enough?)
All I want is just to be good!
(meet the monster in daylight)
Drink up, drink up!
I cannot promise much more from the wells where this comes from.
If you love me
you'll let me be!
(don't look at me!)
I'm a daydreamer because my conscience is guilty.
(have you had enough?
Can I make it rough?
If you're so f*cking tough,
can I draw your blood?)
I was weak!
I kept myself so weak and small!
I saw his face change -
(DON'T LOOK AT ME!)
cause he knew I was asking for it.
And I made eyes
we locked eyes
my sunken eyes in my shrunken skull.
I was small
I looked so frail in my winter coat!
(nobody called the police!)
I didn't scream
I didn't make a peep at all!
That girl is easy.
She made it so f*cking easy.
credits
from Lilith,
released June 15, 2013
music, lyrics, synths, vocals, everything - Julia Hatamyar
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